Time

People like to say say that time flies. In reality, humans just reminisce about the past too much, carefully selecting which memories to keep about days that are long gone. We like to think as the past being easier, better, even less expensive but it is all because we managed to survive it; we got through it. The present is just a headache, full of uncertainty. one is stuck trying to figure out the future, making plans that are beyond ones control, working toward some sort of joy that will one day come. The past is comfort.


I'm turning twenty-two in a matter of days. Not sure what that means. Lots of memories and lessons learned.  I don't know where I'm gonna end up and I don't care anymore. I know what I have lived and from that I can determine that life is subjective. The main point is just to live it. I could be anything I want but right now I just want to be me. I don't have regrets because otherwise my row of dominoes wouldn't have brought me here right now. I admit that I made many mistakes but life has continued. I apologize for my carelessness to those I have hurt and forgive those who have hurt me. Without pain there wouldn't be happiness, however, pain comes naturally and should never be forced. Expectations are a direct route to disappointment. Let them go and enjoy people for who they are and life for whichever way it turns up. Love, always love, because life has many turns and it can be cruel if you don't have that something to keep you going. Look back and smile but don't be hypnotized by the memories. Also, don't get caught up on a future. The beauty of life is its twists and turns that are out of anyone's control.

xoxo
Lola